Rain From Clear Blue Sky

I was shiver and shaking again
Pelted by lies and deceit
It was an uncontrollable fit
My bones hurt
I was falling apart
Until finally
The sleep embraced me
Before my final collapse
Somebody had to save me right?
I woke up a stranger
A new person
A new world
A new life
A blank canvas
Of an artist
Going through a crisis
A poor helpless artist
Having an unbreakable
Artist’s block
High on despair
Then I saw myself
Or whoever it was
In the mirror
Who was it?
So different
So oblivious
Of the storm
Someone
So empty
Devoid or feelings
How could it be?
Then I saw her smiling
A faint smile
Of trust
And belief
A pained smile
Of admiration
And validation
A smile
So tired
So calm
Surprisingly peaceful
Is it my soul?
I questioned
And I saw rain
Falling from the clear blue sky
Cleaning the filth
Washing the wound
I could see
A person scarred
Beyond imagination
I could see
Layers of bruises
That were veiled
Under the sheets
Of sands of time
I saw the gentle
Thin streaks of light
Falling from skies
And I saw..
A colors
That I never saw before
A stange rainbow
And then
I saw the other side of the bridge
And I smiled back..
To this person
Smiling
Bathing
In rain light and colors
I looked up
For the last time
And started walking on the bridge..

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  1. I feel everything in this, keep writing it will help your mind and clear it. I loved this. Something I must admit, I have been through myself when I looked in the mirror, and had realizations of my “now” world.

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  6. You do know Stoner, that belief is a poison if it’s invested in others and a medicine if it’s invested in yourself. I know you’re brave but as I have learned personally what matters is the surroundings. If by any chance the environment doesn’t change, scram.

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      1. It’s better to go in knowing what to expect, rather than venturing into the unknown. And it will be scary, if it’s not perceived like that, it will be a problem. Still just be yourself.

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      5. The question is why should they. Why we still expect them to give a shit? We know we’re alone, at least you and me are in that way. I’ve just given up for making people understand. The best line I heard was, the more you talk about it, the more you’re victimising yourself. So yeah staying in my own world, without caring about them.

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      6. Wish it was that easy. The support vanished one by one and the last one was the most damaging as i was promised 110% support..now its not even -110%.
        I entire hard week and not a single call from home to ay least ask if i am alive

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      7. Don’t worry Stoner. Just be yourself. You’ll get through this. They are weak, you’re not. Like you say, the shit you go through, no one else would survive. Only advice I can give you, when world is your enemy, don’t start becoming one of yourself too. Believe, but only in you.

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