Birthday Blues

Remember when last year I was turning 30 and I threw a weird tantrum. Or maybe a series of tantrums. Here is one of them : Me!!

Well it’s that day of year again.

Yup. It’s my birthday.

And whoever came up with the term birthday blues wasn’t entirely wrong.

Last year I was really worry my 20s are going to end and I haven’t achieved much but later I realized this is not how it works.

Success age numbers happiness satisfaction..all these don’t follow specific patterns. Sometimes they don’t even link to each other.

Few hours before midnight I had that sinking feeling. I actually fell asleep. Glad I did.

As I am not on social media most of the people didn’t remember it’s my birthday. Thank God family did and close friends too. Otherwise I would have gotten really depressed.

Or would I??

At this point if I see a cake my question would be where am I going to take all of this?

This is where you miss family. You know no matter how big the cake is it will be gone.

I don’t know.

Life is weird.

This time it feels like a very normal day that I try to walk by casually.

Since few years I have been setting goals. And mostly it’s just one goal. To get rid of my illness.

Every year I tell myself next year I will be back to normal but that doesn’t happen so not even bothering this time.

Now it’s just another day another year.

But yes I do feel like I have come a long way. I do feel more sensible more mature person. I feel I know myself better in a lot of ways and for that credit goes to all my friends (including you guys) who let me make mistakes.

Above all I have learned something precious very hard way.

I have started believing in “this too shall pass” firmly.

Every time, every hardship, every thing fades. So does your pain and grudges.

Sometimes you have to wait for dust to settle and I know it will soon. Or I will get used to walking through haze.

Life goes on..

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Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.

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