C’s home…

They say we turn into a star When our soul floats away Unshackled from our form Like dainty feathers of a dandelion Crumbling to the lightest winds But … We both knew Stars belong to the night And get swallowed by heat When I’m being torched In the broad day light So, You flew right...

Storm

I lay hereSprawled over Under the cold ashen skyOn the dampness of the shore My broken wings Fanned out in a circleMy heartbeat Fainting in my hollow core Winds numbing and hurting My tips and toesWaiting to be swallowed aliveI can’t fight anymore The giant is galloping nowSeething tyranny in its eyesOur gaze meet for...

Gaping Hole and the Gravel

Recently when I lost one of my closest friends, it felt like a gaping hole. I was scrolling through support groups and I noticed a lot of people using same terms to define the gap left behind, when they lost a loved one. I will talk about my own experience here because grief is too...

Grief and all…

Few days back my grandpa passed away (as most of you know from my last few posts) I have never been close to him but felt a little closer after my mom passed away. Given my history of freezing in the moment when I family member leaves, and then exploding with pain and trauma later,...

Everything will be fine..

What do you do when you see a huge wave galloping towards you? It has power to destroy you in every way and there’s no way you can fight it. You can’t try to hop on it and start surfing. You can’t run away from it, nature is a million times faster than your legs....

Torn..#NaPoWriMo 2018 #AtoZChallenge

My existence lost My words forlorn I miscarried happiness Before it was even born Look at my cruel fate Niether i could smile Nor i could mourn I was awestruck by rose When i got stabbed by the thorn My hope doesn't give in My valour is worn I chained myself mercilessly With a senseless...

Barbed Wires

As I coiled Carefully These barbed wires Around me Preparing myself like a sadist For the inevitable tragedy I kept folding and wrapping Until, I couldn’t see my body And then I waited for the roaring doom To crash on me, ruthlessly The circle was closing in And it was impossible to flee I knew...

I am failing

Its almost time When i have to go Go back to my mental prison I tried I swear upon your beautiful smile I tried I tried to be here I tried to keep smiling I tried to harden my heard To a point where it started cracking I was conflicted Torn By the raging battle...

Need Help with Expressing Misery

Somebody needs to teach me how to show anguish. I am definitely doing it wrong…since forever! It’s been more than 3 years since I have been battling an autoimmune condition that damaged me in ways more than I could ever imagine. But there was this problem. Whenever I met people I was just my idiot...

Something about charcoal.

There’s something about charcoal… its dust settles into your own darkness which is therapeutic for some odd reason. Drawing, smudging, layering, erasing the blackness pulls you into another world of gloom and tranquility. I realized why I am obsessed with charcoal, it lets you play with darkness. And darkness is undeniable. It exists in your...