That’s a lot of emotions, right?
So far I just had work. A lot of work. And I was ok with it because I had A2 between me and the managers. So I had less accountability. But he is leaving in a week.
Yesterday a manager, who has issues with everyone called me at firm.
And it was a crazy roller coaster ride.
He got teary-eyed talking about his childhood, 10 minutes later he told me I will be leading assignments and even gave me a resource to train and supervise. And 5 minutes after that he was very passive-aggressively threatening me!
That’s a mountain of expectations from somebody who joined in 4 months back.
Like he is giving me the lead and a resource, now he is going to give me a crazy amount of work and I can’t make mistakes.
Yesterday I was so overwhelmed. But every colleague, friend and dad were very kind and supportive.
Everyone I asked was all willing to help.
I had a mild headache after such a long time.
I couldn’t process this manager’s behavior. I was already warned by a lot of people so I didn’t say a single word. And was numb for the rest of the day.
Today I have been straight up passing out.
I have scary assignments to deliver.
I have a kid to train at something I started doing 4 months back.
And I have a tricky person to deal with.