You know you have reach your personal zenith of fearlessness when you give yourself a haircut, unsupervised, and unprofessionally.
Now this is my first haircut at dad’s place so I didn’t have my stuff with me.
I could find a paper scissors, had to wash glue off it.
Couldn’t find a tail comb…not even a single comb. We only had brushes and very wide tooth combs, my fingers are closer than bristles, so that’s what I used.
Oh that half an hour where you start with this random sudden urge to be a hairdresser and end with feeling satisfying no matter what you look like. yea..WHAT you look like…, is the most thrilling half an hour.
Tomorrow marks beginning of my new life.
And the haircut is for picture in documentation, even though I’m pretty sure it will still turn out to be a mugshot.
Now, truth be told, I’m the least photogenic person I know.
But id pics don’t make me feel as horrible because they make everything look bad.
You know you feel less bad for yourself when everyone else is looking equally horrible.
I’m going for shopping with sis. I can’t find my 20 lists to I had to make new one and suddenly I started breaking things that were perfectly fine before. Like my slipper I wear all the time. Like wtf???
It’s not even cheap.
I’m kinda nervous too. Not for shopping, just life ahead. Trying to tell myself it’s going to be ok.
Focusing on maintaining gratitude journal, reading each and every affirmation I’m getting. This is cultivating some level of positivity which is very difficult for a person like me.
I miss C tho. She would be thrilled.
We want something to happen so badly, and when it does we don’t know what to feel.
I will try to thread one day at a time. That’s gotten me this far. Everything is going to be ok. As long as I don’t touch scissors for next few months.
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