Juggling

They say staying busy helps, listen to them.

They are absolutely right!

I’m rotating in a infinite loop of sending myself into overdrive and getting overwhelmed.

But that saves me from being a super-shitty person (I think).

Well.

Sending invites for email list to everyone who added my within last 1 year.

I know its exhausting, but I don’t want to regret not trying it.

Also attending a Pakistani wedding, and weddings are expensive circus I swear.

I time myself for every event in phases. Playing music while getting ready is a better waste of time.or you can listen to any course. It anything you can do without my hands because those are busy untangling my nest.

Then I tell myself “it’s only 3 to 4 hours, it will be over soon, don’t forget to erase your short-term memory as much as you can just when it’s over”

And just got to know amazon doesn’t deliver paperback to Pakistan, probably middle east too. Now I’m wondering why exactly I put myself through the pain of doing the whole thing all over again if my friends and family still can’t buy it.

Will confirm with amazon again.

Wish things were easier.

But then… we have to keep moving right? We have to keep trying?

Few days back I was again questioning my choices when I could choose a traditional more convenient path.

But what do you do when you are born a misfit?

Life could be easier but I would be a very unsatisfied person.

I would regret not giving myself a chance.

Regret is torture, the older you are the worse it gets.

The why not work a little harder so that at least your conscience is at peace.

In the end you sleep with your self, your own conscience.