Rant alert!

What do you guys do when u feel your screwed are falling off and your muscles are loosening.

This is next level exhaustion!

Sorry for being late in scheduling book promotions, I have been busy and unwell and super stressed.

I need prayers. Please feel free to send them as much as you can.

Over all I’m not dead. Don’t know how else to sum up current situation.

Next time someone asks me how r you I will say..well I’m not dead.

Just came to say..nothing. ..nothing really.

Sorry for occupying this space today.

I just feel sad.

Im not a saint but do you feel bad if u see someone getting insulted in front of you?

People randomly being targeted.. how badly it can get to you?

I have always maintained mental stress take a toll on your body sooner or later.

Btw I talked to dad for few days half of the day he is so dizzy he just says something and I listen.. I know it doesn’t have to make sense. Not everything has to make sense sometimes u have to listen to people even if they don’t make sense because you love them. You don’t want them to bottle up their pain and agony and disappointment.

Half of the time I forget too.

I half no problem in a being a wall if the person speaking to me means the whole entire world to me.

It’s a tragic month.

For people who have been here since 2 3 years would remember..2 years back we lost mom this month.

everyday, every second of October kills something inside me that will never be born again.

I just want to dissolve in air for a month I abhor my own existence.. as its my birthday month too. And a lot more tragic and distressing happened in this month.

Sorry for my typos grammar and all I will remove this post in a few days may.. I just am tired.

I want to pack myself in a box. A dark box.

I don’t know. This is such a bad time for everything.

I couldn’t hold bad today.

There are times I can’t stop crying and there r times I really wan to cry. But I can’t

Where is my off button I want to shut my system.

I don’t feel like functioning. Not just because of mom but because of how terrible people can be.

I met best kind of people and worst kind of people recently and I don’t know what to think of anymore.

I m just living a day at a time. That’s always been the plan.

Just 1 plan, I day at a time.

Its hard but other options is overwhelming yourself to crazy level of anxiety and I don’t want that right now.

Rant over!

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20 thoughts on “Rant alert!

  1. I will say some prayer like words for you to the sacred pegacorn. 🙂

    It really bugs me when people insult others in front of me and if I totally disagree, I have no qualms speaking up, even if it is to diplomatically point out what someone did/said right as opposed to piling on with what they did/said wrong.

    I am a weirdo, though, I operate on the theory that constructive criticism and positive reinforcement are common sense. The world around me seems to think destructive criticism and negative reinforcement are the status quo.

    Humans make me sad sometimes.

    I’ll throw in an added request to the pegacorn for you to get some much needed rest and a breather from all that is stressing you out. Sounds like you need it, dude.

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    1. That’s for the prayers 🤗 this means a lot to me.

      And yes u r right humans make me sad too but recently I met really nice humans too so now I think it’s some of them who r making whole humanity look bad. But what can we do. Can’t change anything. But can change our own path if possible.

      How r u? Hows spooks??

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      1. We’re both struggling with garbage doctors and garbage insurance companies trying to get the treatment and meds we need, but we still have each other. The days we butt heads, that’s not a plus. The days we get along, it’s all that matters 🙂

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  2. Prayers for you and your family. Death of a loved one always has a shattering effect on us, but a parent’s death is devastating. I hope that you can get some peace and closure.

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  3. I don’t know. It doesn’t sound like a ”rant”, per se. You sound like you are in so much pain. I am so sorry you are hurting. I wish I had easy answers. Anniversaries are hard. Thinking of you.

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