2018

By the end of 2017 I thought it was toughest year of my life but maybe I was wrong. Here is post of last year end, Perfect closure

But 2018 was an extremely challenging and unpredictable ride.  

Let’s split it into categories or I will turn this boring.

Blogging

I thought I haven’t been actively blogging this year ..but stats says otherwise..

Maybe not in the number of followers but overall it has grown I guess.

We lost the daily post. That’s an irrevocable loss. Glad some fellow bloggers are trying to keep the community intact by introducing their own prompts every day.

At one point I was thinking about monetizing blog but after working I gave up. I will think about it again this year, who doesn’t like some extra money?

Needlessly to say this place has always been home. Always comforting. Only place where I can pour my heart our filters removed.

Arts

Practiced more than ever and studied art forms and history (mostly on internet especially youtube). I fell in love with expressionism, and got obsessed with work of Marianne Von Werefkin. You have to check her work.

I felt my art is taking a distinct form of it’s own and it’s a beautiful feeling.

This year I did my best art work so far, Serene

Reading

Didn’t finish a single book! Worst year for book reading. I am still stuck on “the trial”. Still have it by my side.

Poetry.

My poetry book is near completion. Actually publication I am almost done with it just into pre publishing phase.

Participated in OctPoWriMo 2018

Listen to more poetry than music this year I guess. Ellen Edgar Poe, Sylvia Plath, Charles Bukowski were the poetry obsessions of the year.

I don’t know how many times I listened to “The hollow men”.

I wrote my best poem so far, A Poem I Can’t Name

Health

I joined gym, then left for health reasons.

Had a surgery where I though I was in my senses but surgeon thinks otherwise. Most of the time I was acting as a commentator.

I came to terms with my illness. After years of trying to find answers finally doctors told me I probably have to live with this and flares. I accepted the flaw it caused and started working on ways to let it not bother my rest of the life.

Had a month long darkest phase of depression of my life! maybe 2 months. i don’t even remember exactly.

And had my worst chain of panic attacks. God bless my friends for helping me through.

Mental Health Awareness

I started taking baby steps to spread awareness about mental illnesses and tried on my own level to provide some sort of validation to the people living with it.

Personal

I came very close to solving my major life problem and then everything took a you turn.

I lost my entire family so suddenly I couldn’t believe it.

Then got them back but with a brutal reality check, nobody can practically help you.

My friends stood by me all the time emotionally. They didn’t let me collapse. As always.

Someone made me feel so beautiful it became impossible not to like myself. It was a much needed fresh breath of air. You know what you mean to me, just never ever leave me.

Overall life..

If I say it was a tough year I know next one won’t be easy either.

This year made me and broke me in a hundred ways.

But it couldn’t break my dreams because I had the best friends anyone could ever have. I mean it. Any one of them was always around one way or other so whatever happened I wasn’t completely alone.

I don’t believe in new years resolution. Actually I don’t believe in new year’s eve as such. I greeted everyone as it’s a common event for all of us.

I believe in working on your goals one day at a time. And when you follow this approach you make greater progress.

I thought it was an unfortunate year for me personally, but when I started writing I realized it wasn’t that bad. There were light balancing out the darkness.

This is life guys..and that’s how it goes..

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Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.

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