Have you ever faced a mirror and still felt you are not looking at yourself.
Because you have lost a huge part of you.
Growing up this happens to all of us. We lose others and ourselves.
We try to hold on to our life. Survive.
But that somewhere means we keep moulding so that the tides don’t break us.
But what moulding does…you lose yourself. Your identity. Your soul.
New you is nothing Identical to old you.
Today i feel strangely defeated. Like its not a defeat. Its more like facing the truth.
Are the tides that cruel..or we are that weak?
Is it worth fighting?
I dont know. I am losing reasons today.
2+2 is again anything but 4..
I am not hurt Or something.
I am pissed.
I am not even depressed.
I am tired.
Right is right. Wrong is wrong.
Then why everything is so complicated?
Why can’t we just move forward and grow and let our minds develop organically.
Why do we have to be dictated and defeated. Its hard to accept defeat or when you know you were right.
I am tired of cultural oppression and social stupidities. There has to be a limit to it..but i can’t see that limit.
Growing up i thought..ok you grow up get independent get control of your life and then just live…
The truth is so harsh it mocks you in your face.
You have to care about alot of things that don’t even directly relate to you. But your actions effect them that too emotionally..even when it shouldn’t.
It’s like you drank few drops of rain and people started blaming you that rain stopped because you drank a few drops. Crazy right?
If you dont care your conscious start biting you..
If you do … you lose your dreams, life, yourself.
Guess i can never find an answer to all of this. It’s frustrating.
Everytime i dream reality comes to haunt me. And it sucks!
When is it going to end..one day i am running away from all of this.
The day i can i will!
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