Me: Salam daddu
Me: This tells me you are better..you have no idea how happy I am to know that..
Dad: Ahahah..hows stoner
Me: Stoner is good having breakfast..
(it was like 12.30 pm but dad wasn’t surprised)
Me: Dad..do you know whats a drip coffee?
Dad: Umm .. no.
Me: Remember that coffee maker mom got that we never used?
Dad:…i think I remember..must be still lying around somewhere..
Me: Yea..I was trying manual version of the same thing..
(I have a feeling he was watching tv..when the answers become shorter I can tell)
Me: and theres a problem.
Dad: What problem?
Me: There should be one more step to the method.
Dad: Which is..??
Me: Reheating your coffee in the end..by the time its done its almost room temperature..maybe I couldn’t quite Grasp the concept..i might be doing something wrong.
Me: I am hating this.
Dad: Yea..use your creative mind and think..
Me: About what..
Dad: A solution to the problem
Me: Seriously??? You have turned me into this crazy thinking machine. My favorite apology to people is “i am sorry I am smart”
Dad: Ahaha..whats wrong with that?
Me: It’s not funny..
Dad: You can do it I am serious I know you will come up with the solution.
Me: Why do I have to?? I mean..cant I get things easily??
Dad: Cmon whats there to be worried about
Me: I am not buying another machine..aeropress is making a little sense..will do a little research on all of them again..
Me: I dont know why I do this.
Me: But I am not getting another machine..i hate cleaning them..my juicer already drives me insane..
Dad: I know!! I hate watching juicer.. the residue gets stuck in it.
Me: Yea the part where there’s a grater and mesh kinda thing…wait…when did you wash a juicer?? Dont tell me maid ran away again!
Dad: When I was visiting your sister I would do the dishes.
Me: Suddenly I miss you
Rest of the conversation drifted to different subjects like work, tax, governments, current situation of 2 3 countries, law, braces (yea those too) different juice combinations and jobs and I dont even remember the rest.
Yesterday I called dad after days..he was better already.
I felt great to talk to him and as he was little stable and I told him about surgery and he was very supportive.
I ended up having a melt down but I tried to hide it..i still think he must have guessed I was crying. After all he is my dad.
You cant hide anything from him.
There were a few problems of mine that I hid from him. Today I felt he knows about them too and between the lines he told me he is with me and he wont let me succumb to whatever is going on.
I cried and cried my heart out. I felt much lighter after talking to him yesterday.
Well. Then somewhere I told him about how my writing is improving.
I shared my first blog post with him in a word file form as it is about him. I didn’t tell him its a blog.
Yesterday he specifically asked where do I write.
I dodged it.
Not that I have to hide something from him. He is not that judgmental and he is aware of the problems of my actual life so there’s nothing to hide from him.
It’s just that I don’t want him to feel bad as I really vent out here.
I don’t want him to know about my emotional and mental state and struggles.
Now I am looking for less morbid content to share with him I can’t find any in my recent posts.
Yesterday we talked until he slept..again!
Yes he is insomniac and when we talk he sleeps..i dont sing lullabies to him still he does.
So now I have decided a time to call him every day.
Partly because we need each other..and partly because I enjoy the conversations we have.
so yea..dad’s better I am better 🙂
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