This one words has triggered me severely.
I have hundreds of confessions boiling inside, creating an unbearable pressure to burst out.
But guess what…post confession trauma is REAL.
You feel you can trust someone enough to roll out the scroll of your life that you penned down with magic ink. And you allow them to read your weaknesses.
Weakness..this is what comes storming after a confession
The glass walls you built around yourself come crashing down in fraction of a second and you can’t build them back
Then even if you burn that scroll, your life is not completely yours.
You secrets is yours until it resides deep in your memory only. It will haunt you, daunt you, give you nightmares but it’s yours.
Confession means handing over people free right to judge you.
No, matter what the magnitude of pressure building inside be, its still better then being misunderstood and judged.
I know how difficult it is to keep hold of trauma inside. I did it for most of my adult life. But, when my life turned completely upside down, I needed to open myself up, and share everything that had happened in order for me to feel free.
This was a great post! I’m sorry it triggered you so badly. 😦
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there is so much bottling up i can feel my sanity slipping away at time.
something I am dying to share but I know the consequences are worse thanks 🙂
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When I first opened up, I was scared half out of my skull. Especially knowing my friends & family would be reading. But, I was rather surprised how well others took it all in. They were so supportive, I was floored.
By the second, third month… It became easier to purge my feelings here at this juncture.
You will be so comforted by the world here in the blogosphere. 🙂
Naturally, do what is right for you. I do sincerely hope you feel better. 🙂
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I do vent here. This is one place thats balancing the whole mess.
Ever wondered what if they werent supportive??
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Wonder if who wasn’t supportive? My family & friends? Or here?
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Friends and family???
Here people believe what we tell them.
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My mother went through the same hell pretty much. (minus the homelessness). My sister hates me, so she didn’t give a rats ass, and quite frankly, I didn’t care either way.
My friends, they are so loyal and loving… They are more of an extension of what a real family should be. a family. 🙂
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My friends are the same. The support they give me is keeping me alive.
I am glad sharing is working for you 🙂
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I’m always here for you. 🙂
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Thank you. Means alot 🙂
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So true, it is hard to trust people so etimes with you secrets. This one set a few bells ringing for me too except it wasn’t my confession. Either way it is a very emotional word. Great writing!
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as we grow old we grow secretive
99.9% of the times confessions brings you judgement and regret, nothing else.
thank you 🙂
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If I might add. The only worse thing that being judged for confessing is being judged because of assumptions and misunderstanding the silence one chooses. I don’t know would you agree, but that scares me more that speaking out.
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Hmm maybe..
I think this depends on personal experiences.
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It brings some of my memories.
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I hope they are good memories..
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No. It’s the darkest place I’ve ever been into. My love life was ended there.
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I am sorry..
You know you can always share if you want to..
You have my email too in case..
I am sorry didnt mean to remind you of dark memories
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It’s not your fault. It’s my damn brain that keeps reminding me. 😀 Relax. I learned to keep quiet. 😀
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Confess is such a heavy word.
Hope you are ok now.
And see…you prefer to keep quiet too
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Yeah, I’m 0K. I keep quiet only on some topics. 😀 Don’t you worry about me Lt. Alyana.
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😒
🙂
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And wheres tonight’s blabber…i am waiting
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Hold your camels Lt. Alyana. Haven’t started writing that. 😀 Will start now.
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Ok
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Now you can read it. 😀
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Thank you 🙂
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In my opinion, nobody has the right to judge you. No matter what you confess. If they don’t like your trust in them, allowing you the freedom to share something with them, and criticize and/or judge you for it, they weren’t much of a friend. Nor were they trustworthy. 😊
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Sir, you are the best! 👏
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Hahaha! Not sure about that. Just to old and jaded to put up with people’s bullshit. 😃
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Ahhahahahah damn is that how long it takes to learn??
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Hey! I’m not that old….am I? Shit.
But I learned this long before I got to be the age I am now. I was fed up with people before even being outta high school. 😃
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Ahahhahaahah 😆😆 sometimes i imagine i must have born grumpy..
I was done with people from the day i could hear and understand words..
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Hahaha! I don’t blame you, honestly. 😃
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Ahah thanks for understanding. 😆
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Oh, believe me, I totally get it. 😃
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your writing style is so amazing 🙂 keep it up.
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Thanks hun 🙂
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🙂
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I didn’t’ read all the comments so I am not sure of the consensus. Doesn’t matter to me I guess, because I agree, it opens up your life to others. While I am brutally honest, I am JUST as private. Learned lesson the first time I decided to share a tough story. Then the eyebrows and the “oh”. It wasn’t even anything bad, just clearly, a judgment was more welcome to them then easing the discomfort to me. Thats life… Always truth in your words.
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I exactly know what how it feels.
I have even weirder problems. People start giving you suggestions and no matter how hard you try to explain they assume that you are doing something wrong thats why you are stuck in a problem. This sucks.
Recently i opened up with a serious issue and i had to face most unexpected adverse reaction. No sympathy no compassion no empathy. Just judgement and inconsiderate suggestion.
Thanks for saying this. I was feeling guilty of having pretty much a dual life now.
Thanks 🙂
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You have so much wisdom. Hang in there. 2018 will be full of new stories. PS better check my page. We were taking about you. lol. #weloveyou (Me and Dronstad) lol.
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I am already laughing 😆
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I am boiling inside and there is a frozen layer outside. I hope things get better soon.
And i love and treasure you guys. And i mean it. You dont even know the role you play to dilute my pain.
Thanks alot for everything 🙂
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Ditto…
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❤🙂
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