A tragic realization has just downed on me recently
A few people on different occasion have told me you can’t live alone.
I feel its better to live alone peacefully
Rather than living in chaos and hatred.
People gave me mom’s example. There were unbelievable number of people present on her funeral. We dont even know who came who didnt.
She always lived on the terms and conditions of everybody else.
She was simple submissive obedient woman.
People told me if you try to live on your own you die alone.
In old age there will be nobody to stand by your side.
This is so not fair!!
Are we supposed to stifle our own voice just so that there will be more shoulders carrying our casket??
Or the fear of being left alone in an a frail crumbling chapter of our life is enough to convince us ‘do what people say or they will leave you’??
What if we do everything they want and in the end they still leave us?
What if they dont show up at all at our funeral??
These questions i don’t dare ask.
I have no energy to listen to useless explanations that sound like fairytale but are plain WRONG!
I asked sam ‘can u arrange 4 people to shoulder my casket’
‘I will. Don’t worry. Do what you want’ she said without looking at me.
So this is what it boils down to..
your whole life babysitting stupid fragile egos
And Dancing to the orders disguised by the term ‘expectations’ earn you…just shoulders.
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