As May is observed as Mental Health Month, I would like to give my two cents on anxiety based on my own experience.
I have steroids induced anxiety. I have been on steroids and immunosuppressant for autoimmune and that revved-up my brain.
I was already a restive person by nature.
I used to wash my hands innumerous times a day. It was like even if water touches my hand I had to wash it.
I had shredder fitted in my hands. I had uncontrollable urge to tear a paper once I held it. You could find tiny pieces of tissues and paper wherever I sat.
I would constantly scratch pencil and twist pins during lectures.
I always had trouble sleeping no matter how tired I was.
I could never stand straight and if I had something on my mind I would pace like a caged lion.
Once I was put on prednisone (steroids) shit hit the fan!
As there wasn’t a proper diagnosis and I didn’t know how long it will take to be my normal self again, I was living in constant paranoia.
Anxiety makes you restless to the point where you lose control on yourself.
You are worried about anything and everything.
At the peak of side-effects I could feel air leaving from pores of the skin of my arms. This is the most awfully horrifying feeling ever. I wished I could scratch my skin off.
I was fighting an invisible demon, nobody could tell what’s happening to me. Had I tried to explain, they wouldn’t be able to understand.
My doctors have been incredibly kind and supportive. They altered my medicine to make my situation a bit endurable and they were always there to lend ears.
I would like to request everybody who has a loved one facing any mental disorder, specially anxiety;
- You have no idea what a person is going through so please be a bit considerate and tolerant with them.
- If you detect any red flag please talk to the person and suggest them they seek help. And be there for them.
- They are not over-reacting don’t tell them so!
- They can’t control their reactions don’t base your judgments on them.
- If they want to be alone for sometime let them be… don’t call them an introvert.
- Don’t call them a Psycho for the love of God!
- They may come as a bit clingy as they crave for love and care at this point, try to understand them.
- They do have temperament issues. Again, please be patient. If you disagree with them talk to them nicely when they have calmed down.
- Trying to impose anything will ruin them, as they are really sensitive and vulnerable because of their condition.
- Don’t tell them “it’s nothing” just because you can’t see it.
The list can go on and on. Just be a good human to them.
Please don’t push them from the edge of the Precipice, where they are already standing wishing they could jump.
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